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(no subject) [Apr. 5th, 2008|11:38 pm]
[Current Music |Gumption - Hans Zimmer]

I love that this can become a real journal.


I know this is incredibley selfish and sounds like I'm on the brink of some kind of immature insanity mixed with some self obsessed dramatic..well drama but with the death of Stephanie, Lyndsey, Joel, and Zach I have thought about a lot things. Things that most teenagers think about like Why? and What if it was so-and-so. But, one thought I really can't delete from my mind, and the first thought that came to my mind after the event is "What luck." Like I said, it sounds extraordinarily selfish and rude but I really do feel that they were, in so many ways, so lucky. Sometimes I really wish I could switch seats with them in that red convertable.
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Dec 7 [Nov. 6th, 2007|03:48 pm]
[Current Music |the weeks]

music really changes my mood.


ONE MONTH TIL I LEAVE FOR NEW YORK! FUCK ALABAMA MAN!! :D hahaha
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to add to that.. [Oct. 28th, 2007|01:17 am]
[Current Location |same]
[Current Mood | drained]
[Current Music |same]

.. I quite honestly think something is wrong with me. for the past two weeks I have cried at least 4 times everyday. & I cannott get happy even when I am with my "best" friends I feel consumed. Its not something thats a normal depression, I promise.
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finallllly!! [Oct. 28th, 2007|01:15 am]
[Current Location |downstuurs.]
[Current Music |Phil of the future is in my head...]

Things are getting a little better now that my mom is getting me a counselor.
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(no subject) [Oct. 22nd, 2007|04:36 pm]
[Current Mood | confused]
[Current Music |All my loving]

Sense no one reads Live Journals anymore, I'm actually going to use it as a FOR REAL journal. Well, for the most part.

Recently, I've felt so alone. Which is totally normal for teenagers and especially teenage girls. But I feel like noone listens to me and noone really cares when I am around. Like I am sure people would notice if I wasn't around but when I am around they just take me for granted. Not saying I should be treated like jesus christ in his second coming but that people would listen to me when I talk.
Also, I am struggling with photography. My teacher said that this year he can tell I am struggling too. He thinks something is wrong with me, personally, making me not able to perform up to my normal standards. And for anyone who knows me.. You know that all I really enjoy doing is photography and that my whole life is based around being a photographer...
Something is wrong I think.
I think I am not going to succeed at it.

I really don't know how to explain the things that are going on in my head. I could never put them into words. I am just so frustrated with the things that are going on right now.. I really don't know why I am here.
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This is imporatanttt [Mar. 8th, 2007|04:28 pm]
[Current Location |next to a peice of pizzaaa]
[Current Mood | curious]
[Current Music |LOVE AND MEMORYYY]

So I've decided, I am going to bring Livejournal BACK!! I miss it. I miss not hearing about everyones life every week or every day. WHATEVERRR.

So apparently this weekend I have a soccer game then I am going to a lock-in AND THENNNN tanning at some point with jillian and who ever else wants to come. wwwwanna go?
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(no subject) [Nov. 18th, 2006|12:30 pm]
IM GOING TO GATLINBURG WITH ADELLLLL.


SHAAAKE YO MONEEY MAKUHHH. :D
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friendsss [Nov. 18th, 2006|12:29 pm]
everything is so different now.
- i mean a saw this coming, But i pictured it differently. I picture a fight or a blow out. Not just a invisable drift. Its crazy. I mean you think it wont ever happen and you say it multple times, and vow that its a lie. When really your just niave. you belive it isn't true. i'm not complaining, in ways im glad it has happened. I just think its interesting.
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hollllerrr. [Sep. 10th, 2006|12:22 am]
[Current Location |homeee]
[Current Mood | accomplished]
[Current Music |HARRY CONNICK JR]

Duddde haven't updated in like forever. 
School is ridiculous :
health is stupid why the crap we have to take that class i dont even know. cause like  its common sense its like don't eat the fries, they are fatening.... don't do drugs.. blah blah. its stupid. if anyone has ever made below a B in that class they need brain sugery.
Biology is easy.. i made a 100 on the first test, a 101 on the second test, and a 95 on the third. which is retarded because i fail every class. BECAUSE IM ARTISTICC. bahahlkhsfclvkj haha. whateverrrr. Gabe Evans thinks im going to be a doctor. HA, oh no.
English is weird like i know its going tro be hard. but the teacher is easy she assigns bullshit assignments. and we talk all during class. i have an A in that class right now. But we haven't even started a research paper... ima fail. i didnt even do my research paper in Mrs. Brown's class last year.HAAA it was like worth 200 points.
Geometry SUCKSSSSSSS, the end. rdslkgjnkd

BRIGHT SIDE IS MY SECOND TERM IS GOINGTO BE SUPER EASYY

Soccer is fun. whatever NAIA is.. my coach thinks i could play it in collegeeee. Yeeeuh.
BOYSS SUCK. they confuse me. and im confusing myself reading into things they do. they are just retarded. im not some kind of sexest.. they are just making me feel allllll confusedd. kill them. No really dont. i love boys. YESS I DOOO.
I've figured out who my friends are.. who my friends could be.. and who i need to just let go. Everyones doing things and maturing and making good and bad decissionsss. i mean thats just my opinion though. HAVE YOUR OWNNN. im not like mad at you. just know you may not be happy with yourself at the end. if you accept that and still do these things then i guesssss.... YOURRR A RISK TAKERRR. [ which i ve learned in health is bad. healths RETARDED] 

more recent:
MY WEEEKEENDD:

fridayyyy i totally went to the SV and PELL CITY GAME. it was fun. Boringgg. but fun.
Saturday i had a soccer game at like three o clock. i sucked, PLAYEDD HORRIBLE. and then went to villa and ate and  the man got my  order wrong. buts okay he said sorry. :D   THENNN went to Blake-lea's party.
Sunday ill probley read that dumb book for english so im not so far behind.


this is my update. THEE ENDD
OH, and also, i hate that song CRAZY by gnarls barkleyyy.

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CITY STAGES [Jun. 17th, 2006|03:34 pm]
[Current Music |DROP IT LIKE ITS HAWTTT.]

CIty Stages tonight.

CALL ME TO HOOK UP.
:D


Charlottoe drougoullllsss ARE YOU GOING?
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Summer Update. [Jun. 14th, 2006|11:19 am]
[Current Mood | calm]
[Current Music |spectacular views.]

MGHMM.jpg
LAST NIGHT.

MECALECKUH.jpg
THIS PAST WEEKEND.

nikklet.jpg
TWO TO THREE WEEKEND AGO.

MMM.jpg
END OF SCHOOL.

Thats basicly the only human contact I've had. Soccer rules my life. ITS RIDICULOUS!

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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2006|04:14 pm]
[Current Mood |decent]
[Current Music |Nelly FURRRTADO.]

CLIMB MY DICK MOUNTIAN, SUCK ON MY JIZZ FOUNTIAN.


Hmm, Well All week all I've done is soccer.
It's ridiculous how much shitn i do for soccer
& coach voltz says that i suck. Well not like that.
He just basicly told me I'm never going to be good enough.
Well anyways... I've seriously done soccer all week long.
I wake up and go to camp in the morning and I come home
to eat & then I go to try outs. My life is pretty useless.

I WISH I HAD REALLLLL FRIENDS. D:

Weeeelp Im out.

Oh & MYSPACEEE BOOSTER:
www.myspace.com/lillisha
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CLUBBBBB. [May. 20th, 2006|12:31 pm]
[Current Mood | energetic]
[Current Music |The Fray]

"Every one knows im in OVER MY HEAD, Over My head."

Today my parents are working so i cant go to the church
thing i really wanted to go to, I cant wait til' i get
my car. Orrr a license. But thats never going to happen
because im flake and scared to drive. :D
Wellllp today im going to watch zorro two and spice world
four times each then get read for the soccer banquet where
we get our shirts, Im super excited. :D Yayy for all our
graduating seniors... I LOVE YOU GUYS!! :D

Hmm well call me, im bored. 7 9 0 7 8 6 5
KAY THANKS!
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OUT OF CONTROLLLL! :D [May. 18th, 2006|04:16 pm]
[Current Mood | bouncy]
[Current Music |better son/ Daughter]

If your in the so called "CREW"
& still read your LJ.
DO NOT FORGET TO CLEAR YOUR SCHEDEULLEEEE FOR
FRIDAY OF NEXT WEEK!

Weekend plans:
Friday: Gabriels game, movies, lock in. SO MUCH!
Saturday:SOCCER, SOCCER,& SOCCER
Sunday:Church & Drama.

EXAMS TOMORROW & MONDAY.
YOU BETTER STUDDDDY YO! :D
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stupid cupid, stop pickin on me [May. 2nd, 2006|05:21 pm]
[Current Location |Elise's]
[Current Mood | blank]
[Current Music |mandy moore.]

At Elise's house again.

I'm going to gabriels house to play clean house.
See you there Ashley & Keesay.

Ich liebe dich.
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Two Square Roots of Six. [May. 1st, 2006|04:33 pm]
[Current Location |Eli Schnafflewaffle.]
[Current Mood | anxious]
[Current Music |103.7 its the song with the muchcans singing.]

soccers over.
schools almost out.

&& I'm at Elise's house doing math.
Lifes been fine.
tiring & frustrating.
but happy & lovable also.
I've laughed a lot more recently.
& im cried a lot.
This year was fun... i can't wait to graduate.

much love.:D
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(no subject) [Mar. 29th, 2006|05:17 pm]
I'M GOING TO MARRY A SOCCER BOY HOW WANTS TO BE A DOCTOR.
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NOW & THEN I LIKE TAA FEEL GOOD :D [Mar. 13th, 2006|04:24 pm]
[Current Mood | artistic]
[Current Music |take me or leave me.]

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SO SO SO CUTEE. <33
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OH LOVUHH ILL COVER YOUU <33 [Mar. 12th, 2006|02:43 am]
[Current Mood | amused]
[Current Music |FAMILY GUYYY :D]

Yep, So tonight..
I'm at elise's house.


TODAYY; MARCH ELEVENTHHH:
We [ Elise, Ashley, Michelle, Scotty, & I who also met
Steeven BUTTT, william, ChaZZZ, Charles, Kelsay, & a few others]
Met at the summit & walked around and hung out. Made videos,
Took pictures. Danceddd. & Road the shuttle.
IT WAS FUNN.
Then, came back to Elise, Got crunk & watched " R.E.N.T"
Which i love. & i love ANGEL :D
Then Everyone talked to jacob. I got hyper & sang at the top of my
lungs. & NOWWW Elise is up stairs Asleep i assume. & Ashley, Kelsay,
& I are watching some family guy episode. :D

Welppp. I HAD A WONDERFULLY TREMENDOUS DAY. Thankss. <33

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Yesterday [Mar. 7th, 2006|05:58 pm]
[Current Mood | bored]
[Current Music |AQUA]

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ITS TEARIN UP MY HEART <33
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